Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Don't Wanna

Right now I've just dodged a tantrum from June and have Josh in time out for hitting June then hitting Elizabeth (both unprompted).  I've been trying really hard to parent well lately and I just don't want to tonight.  I want to be selfish.  I want to look up a good dinner recipe.  I want to cook without pacifying needs and wants.  I want to just exist tonight without the mental games of being a good mommy: pleasant, positive, and engaged.

Today has been intense and I've done my best.  I just want to punch out.  Off the clock.  I'm fine with being around my kids but I don't feel like trying...

How's that for honesty?

1 comment:

Christa G said...

Susie, that's an honest post if I ever saw one. I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel like that at least once a day. Chin up! Bed time always comes and thank heavens we can regroup for the next days battles and of course many joys. :-)