I don't want to say it's a desire. I don't want to say it's a want or a longing. It's a contented feeling.
For the first time ever, I am looking forward to our next baby without hesitation, apprehension, or fear. A baby is always welcome. Each one is a blessing. Yes. But bringing another human into this world is kind of a big deal, so it's usually a bit nerve wracking too. Maturity and age plays a role too, I'm sure.
Anyway, my heart has a happy hope in it for our next little one. It's not a rotten, consuming *want,* but it's no longer an eery scary feeling... it's a calm hope. I think ahead to whether our next baby will be a boy or girl. Whether he/she will have lots of hair like Josh or minimal like Elizabeth. Will I finally get a baby with blue eyes? Will this little one be calm tempered as a baby like his/her big brothers and sister? What personality awaits our family. What dynamics will change with that next great shift and welcoming of a 6th member of our family.
All I know is that all those things are good and with that much good ahead, how can you not be happy to anticipate baby news? :)
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I'm glad He's giving you this peace :) Crazy how we can feel different things that seem to be at odds... anticipation and contentedness... at the same time.
And it kind of seems like, although we're at waiting stages in different ways on different things, God's giving us both that same anticipatory-future-hope but contentedness now peace. Good stuff, Susie :)
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