Double Lutz

This is the hardest double in skating aside from a double axel (which I never landed consistently... or much at all)  and it was always a trouble jump for me.  I needed to have it in my Senior Free program in order to pass the level (the highest level in skating) so I did and I landed it, but that jump and I have never been good friends.  

After I passed my Senior Free, I got married... 3 days later.  No pressure.  Then 2 weeks after that I was pregnant.  Since that test, I hadn't done a double lutz until TODAY.  I skated after I had June and I skated (once) after I had Josh, but for whatever reason the ice felt good today.  My jumps felt fresh and easy and ... normal.  It had been about 2.5 years since I had been on the ice before today.  It's amazing. And Callie convinced me to try the dreaded double lutz.  

And I did.  

And you know what?  I fell.  I fell 4 or 5 times.  You know what else?  It felt good.  My jump looked good. My jump felt good... my edge didn't want to hold but I DID IT.  It feels amazing.  I wish there was a way to still get to the rink once a week or once every-other week or something because today I remembered who I am.  Skating is me.  Skating is sanity.  Down to my core, I'm a skater and I miss it. 

There are more than 1 reason why I can't continue to be a skater, but I'm thankful for days like today when  I can go and remember who I am and what I can do... outside of motherhood. 

It may not be landed... but here is my double lutz, after a 5+ year haitus.