This is the hardest double in skating aside from a double axel (which I never landed consistently... or much at all) and it was always a trouble jump for me. I needed to have it in my Senior Free program in order to pass the level (the highest level in skating) so I did and I landed it, but that jump and I have never been good friends.
After I passed my Senior Free, I got married... 3 days later. No pressure. Then 2 weeks after that I was pregnant. Since that test, I hadn't done a double lutz until TODAY. I skated after I had June and I skated (once) after I had Josh, but for whatever reason the ice felt good today. My jumps felt fresh and easy and ... normal. It had been about 2.5 years since I had been on the ice before today. It's amazing. And Callie convinced me to try the dreaded double lutz.
And I did.
And you know what? I fell. I fell 4 or 5 times. You know what else? It felt good. My jump looked good. My jump felt good... my edge didn't want to hold but I DID IT. It feels amazing. I wish there was a way to still get to the rink once a week or once every-other week or something because today I remembered who I am. Skating is me. Skating is sanity. Down to my core, I'm a skater and I miss it.
There are more than 1 reason why I can't continue to be a skater, but I'm thankful for days like today when I can go and remember who I am and what I can do... outside of motherhood.
It may not be landed... but here is my double lutz, after a 5+ year haitus.
