Articles from Little Catholic Bubble and some personal "aha!"

http://littlecatholicbubble.blogspot.com/2011/10/why-i-never-should-have-had-eight.html

Awesome article and I agree with her 100%.  This is exactly how I have been feeling over the last 6 months.

http://littlecatholicbubble.blogspot.com/2011/03/how-to-raise-eight-children-without.html

This article ROCKS and give me so much hope. :)  That one was good for the soul.

I realized this: (this is an excerpt from an email I wrote today)

"So I've been in this funk (because I'm dumb) and I keep getting pulled down.  Opinions over our next child spacing, Jim working too long everyday, homeschool/school, kid fighting are all fueling my fire.  Today I found a blog and I was reading it and just realized: duh.  Why am I stressing myself out over any of this stuff?  Not to get religious but she said that discouragement comes from the Devil... God will only ever encourage.  In that moment I realized my funk was being feeling discouraged over my decisions and how they make others feel, yada yada.  I've been feeling inadequate when there is really no reason for me to feel inadequate.  I'm making the best life I can for my kids and I'm doing a pretty ok job, if I say so myself.  Be gone self doubt. Be gone discouragement.

I need to knock it off.  I'm going to make the best decisions I can for me... and roll with the punches.  It.doesn't.matter.what.others.think.  ::weight lifted:: 

I though you would like to share in my epiphany."

Go me... I feel progress coming on...