Why You?

Jim and I decided a long time ago that deciding to "have another" wouldn't be a decision... at least not our decision. It's up to the Big Man Upstairs and we're just hoping our faith is strong enough to understand and forfeit the control over our family size.

We have not prevented children at all and have been blessed with 2 in under 2.5 years of marriage. So it begs the question.. why you? What made June so special that he was chosen as the first born of our family; the leader of (hopefully) many. As June's personality comes out I am understanding and seeing why he was sent as my firstborn. I can't put it into words, but it fits.

More recently, it's struck me... why Josh. What made him superior above all the other probably millions of potential candidates for our #2. What personality does Josh possess that makes him mold perfectly as June's little brother, but older than all future siblings.

And why 2 boys?! I'm a boy mommy and it blows my mind. I think I'd be completely content with 7, 8, 9 boys... I have 2 brothers and always was drawn to boys (as friends) over girls. Girls are... drama. :oP Anyway, I digress... although I can see myself with many boys, I actually have 2. 2 boys... 2 dirty, stinky boys. Somehow I think they are going to teach me more than I know.

I can't wait to see June and Josh develop and grow. I can't wait for the revelation as to WHY they were chosen for us. Out of the 2 times in our marriage when the stars aligned and little ones were allowed into our lives, those 2 barged right in. Why them...

:o)